It's OK Not to Remember

This picture showed up on my FaceBook feed several days ago.  It's such a cute one of Meg and Nick, but it is hard for me to look at it.  That day had been such a good one for Meg.  She went back to school for a half day after having oral surgery earlier in the week.  Since she couldn't eat, Meg spent her lunch hour with KeSawn catching up on everything that he had going on in his life.  He made her promise to come to his senior night at basketball.  She even made him a poster for the game once she got home from school.  Meg joined the girls in her grade donning cheerleading outfits while Nick stuck with the cowboy theme night.  

Meg was sore and tired when she got home that night, but was still full of stories.  There had been a root beer keg after the game to celebrate seniors.  Afterward, they all went Culver's and enjoyed a lot of together time.  There had been two seniors on the team that year, but Shawn was the MVP and most involved with basketball.  The next day he was actually going on a recruiting trip to a college for the sport.

As wonderful as that Friday night was, the next day was one of the worst in Meg's life.  KeShawn was killed in a car accident that Saturday afternoon.  Shock, disbelief and a long time of mourning followed.  Seeing the picture of Meg smiling always makes me think back to that Saturday night in February.  I wish I could have stopped the accident from happening or the sadness that followed.  

This year, I actually thought about deleting the post so that it wouldn't show up in my FaceBook memories anymore. I don't like thinking about sad things.  I've always sad that it is ok not to remember.  In the end, I left the memory intact.  It was a wonderful recollection of a fun night and Meg's successful transition to Bethany.  KeShawn was a big part of that.  Instead of being sad, I chose to think about that instead.