I wish that I could say that today was perfect and that I was so excited when we pulled into the driveway at 12:30 a.m., but I can't. It started great. Last night, I drove to Brett and Karen's and we had a great time hanging out. Brett even made turkey paninis for dinner which were really good. This morning, Doug's flight to Indy arrived early and we were on our way by 9:30 this morning with the hope of making it to Ocala tonight. Traffic was light and the rain held off for quite some time. I was happy to be back in the sunshine when we hit Tennessee and thankful for the warmer temperatures.
Everything fell apart around 7:30 this evening when Doug and I got into a huge argument. As the night continued, I realized that it wasn't the mustard on the car seat that Doug tried to clean up with Propel water that was the issue. It was the fact that I had asked him to put a paper towel down before he ate his sandwich that upset me. It was like it was the final straw of a very stressful year and I just couldn't take it anymore. I felt terrible that I got as mad as I did as it is very rare that I argue with Doug. It doesn't help his tremor, and it never makes me feel good about the situation. It is definitely something that I will have to talk to my therapist about. It has been over a year since I have been that angry. Hopefully, she can help me figure it out. Until then, all I can do is accept Doug's apology for the mustard and reiterate to him how sorry I was for getting upset. Sleep tonight and rest tomorrow should help both of us.
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