Wasting My Time

I left the meeting on Monday night so frustrated that I actually started to cry.  Nothing bad happened at the meeting and no one was mean, but out of the two hours I was there, I participated in seven minutes of it.  It was an important part of the meeting, but the rest of it was completely irrelevant to me.  It was a lot of talk about next year and ideas that were read from the suggestions given at the last meeting of the year.  

As I sat at the meeting, I thought back to all of the times that I had to go to Smart Start as a teacher.  Most of the meetings were a complete waste of time.  I listened to someone else talk and tried to be supportive but realized that the person speaking could care less about my opinion. Because of those early mornings, I had become extremely apathetic about non-collaborative meetings.  I have been reading on my own for over fifty years, if someone was just going to dictate to me, then I would strongly prefer for them to send their thoughts in an email.  I would read it and respond if needed.  Otherwise, don't waste my time.

Because of all of this, I decided that it might be time for me to move on to something different.  When I said that I would run for office, I never dreamed how much time this would take up of mine.  I would be ok with it if I felt that I was helping someone or making a difference.  I am not, however, and hate missing time with my family for no reason.  I have decided that I will take some time to think about what I want to do and how much time I have to help in the future. Thus, I am extremely thankful for a break this summer to do just that.